Alaina Faith

Tomorrow Alaina graduates Pre-school! I am excited for her because she is excited! We spent the weekend pretty much inseperatable! She helped me cook breakfast on Saturday, and clean the kitchen and she loves to do dishes. She has such a sweet spirit, but also has a hard time taking NO for an answer.
She really blesses my heart. She has such a winning personality but it is also extremely hard to see my baby growing up. Alaina is creative, she paints, she writes, she talks ALL THE TIME, she sings and generally makes me smile.
On her fifth birthday she told me she could still be my baby until she is six. Am i ruining her? haha.

With all this come a little sadness. I NEVER thought I would want another baby. I have that sadness in my heart that my life didn't go exactly how I planned. But i know that i am wonderfully made and God is in control of my life with His plans not mine. What I wanted was a LARGE family and to stay at home and take care of that very large family. I would love to be pregnant again and have that amazing feeling of a baby in my arms again. I guess it also has to do with my age. I don't want to be passed the age of having kids and being young. I know i know i am only 35 but i loved that baby time of my life.
I have grown so much in this year in my relationship with God and in just resting in the fact that I can let him have control of my life. So why is it so hard?

Over all i enjoy my kids so much everyday. On Sunday Samuel cooked his own eggs. He was thrilled. They say some fun things, like Samuel said he was much more interested in stories of Papa John's childhood than his own daddy's. Cute! He loves his Papa John so much!

I can't wait for school to be out! I can't wait for lazy mornings, and walks and time just to be with them! to be only a mommy, and a wife! To make memories and to share summer days is so fun! and blesses my heart.

May

Well we made it through April... birthdays, weddings, events, craziness!!! Now for May which is just as busy if not more. I can't wait for school to be out! CAN'T WAIT! I am so looking forward to lazy mornings with the kids, going to the pool. Riding our bikes, which btw ALAINA is now riding a two wheeler. Picnics in the park are my favorite. Ahhhh summer. But i have to make it through may to get there.
Isn't it horrible that as teachers we wish nine months of our lives away every year! I need to really do some work with that. Instead of waking up on monday wishing it was friday, maybe just be thankful for the day i do have??? how do you do that?
Waking up in August, wishing it was already the end of MAY.