I did nothing spectacular this weekend, but it was a fun weekend. It feels like it sort of floated away too quickly. But any time i am not at work, the time flies by, i know i know surprise surprise. I am sure i am not the only one who has short weekends.
I don't really have anything fun to say today. I am having a touch of insomnia and i can't seem to turn my brain off and fall asleep. I can't get things off my mind. I am thinking about my mom a lot tonight. I have a list a mile long of things i am behind on and i have no clue how i am going to catch up. So the little hampster in my head keeps running.
I am trying to remember that there is only ONE person who can ease all my worries, and think about the amazing verse in 2Tim. that reminds me that i Know the one in whom i trust.
Something i am completely in awe of and thankful for is the opportunity to Know Jesus and to have that intimate realationship with Him, that he has planned for me. Also that my Mother knows Him, and knows where her eternity is going to be spent. That all being said, it is still really hard for me to think about a life without her. Every detail of my life it touched by my precious loving mother. She is such a major part of my life, and all of my thoughts on the subject seem so selfish. Does she know how much i love her, and depend on her? That when i go a day without seeing her or hearing her voice, i miss her terribly? I pray that i have made her proud, that I have become the woman she wanted me to when i was just a baby.
So my brain won't let me sleep tonight, it just keeps running over things again and again.
Call your mom today and tell her you love her. Or just that you appreciate her. Listne to her voice, and memorize her laugh, think of her beautiful smile.
And have a happy week. I pray that i can just be still and sleep.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Beautiful Bike Rides
First let me start by saying I had the most stupendous weekend. I was off of work on friday and I got the great adventure of taking my two sweet girls to the zoo. It was a gorgeous day. We saw everything. All of the animals were outside loving the weather as much as we were. We saw baby giraffe and elephants, the lions were actually roaring. I mean it couldn't have been any better. It was a great time, Alaina and i sang the wort hog song to the wort hogs. :) We skipped and laughed and it was just great being mommy and not a teacher for the day.
On another note I finally got a bike!!! It is purple. It is a hot rod of a bike. I LOVE IT. I got it on saturday. I have ridden it every day since. I have gone all over the neighborhood with my kids. Alaina and Leila are laughing at me saying "Mommy loves her new bike" and I do! Leila and I rode to one park on Sunday, and then to another park for a picnic on Monday. Samuel isn't so excited, because he would much rather be home playing video games, or watching TV, much to his dismay when i told him it was too pretty outside and they were playing outside until dark.
Let me tell you, if you need to feel young again get a bike. It is exhilarating. Flying down hills with the wind in your hair. Of coarse going up the hill is a different story. I am so happy for spring and warmer weather. And a new hobby. I have had my bike all of four days, and I have ridden it every day. I day dream about places i can ride.
On another note I finally got a bike!!! It is purple. It is a hot rod of a bike. I LOVE IT. I got it on saturday. I have ridden it every day since. I have gone all over the neighborhood with my kids. Alaina and Leila are laughing at me saying "Mommy loves her new bike" and I do! Leila and I rode to one park on Sunday, and then to another park for a picnic on Monday. Samuel isn't so excited, because he would much rather be home playing video games, or watching TV, much to his dismay when i told him it was too pretty outside and they were playing outside until dark.
Let me tell you, if you need to feel young again get a bike. It is exhilarating. Flying down hills with the wind in your hair. Of coarse going up the hill is a different story. I am so happy for spring and warmer weather. And a new hobby. I have had my bike all of four days, and I have ridden it every day. I day dream about places i can ride.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Time slipping by
My little one keeps telling me that there are always mommys. I don't know if she is trying to comfort me because of my mom, or if she is just being her sweet self. It goes like this: Alaina: Mommy even when i grow up and i am a mommy you will still be my mom. Me: Yep that is right. Alaina: And when your mommy dies and is in heaven you will still be my mommy and that is good. ME: Yep sweetie Alaina: So it is good there is always mommys. And I will be a good mommy like you are and like your mommy is and my kids will love me.
Now I tell you this because it just came out of the blue. She loves me so much and our time seems to slip by. She is soon six, and she has already ordered her birthday cake made by me. She is like me in the way that she is already counting down to her birhday. :)
I am truely blessed. I have a great job that allows me to have time with my kids. they get to go to work with me every day and I get to share in their education even when i am teaching in my own room. But sometimes i feel like i am just watching them grow up way too fast. We get busy days fly by. Our lives are full, busy schedules and daily routines. But at the end of the day, they are snuggled up with me telling me they love me and we are all good.
This is a long weekend, and I hope to spend some quiet time with each of my kids this weekend. Listening to them, knowing them, and letting them know I love them. I hope your weekend is great.
Now I tell you this because it just came out of the blue. She loves me so much and our time seems to slip by. She is soon six, and she has already ordered her birthday cake made by me. She is like me in the way that she is already counting down to her birhday. :)
I am truely blessed. I have a great job that allows me to have time with my kids. they get to go to work with me every day and I get to share in their education even when i am teaching in my own room. But sometimes i feel like i am just watching them grow up way too fast. We get busy days fly by. Our lives are full, busy schedules and daily routines. But at the end of the day, they are snuggled up with me telling me they love me and we are all good.
This is a long weekend, and I hope to spend some quiet time with each of my kids this weekend. Listening to them, knowing them, and letting them know I love them. I hope your weekend is great.
Monday, March 14, 2011
cravings
Ok no i am not prego. (however i wouldn't mind having another baby, it would be a miracle birth) Any way craving amaze me. I often crave certain foods, and I am completely unsatified with every thing else. Jon will tell you i drive him crazy because i never want to eat anything but the perfect thing.
This weekend it was fried chicken! I also am forever trying to make everything I normally make better. But fried chicken is one that I think i do pretty well. Any way what better than to make fried chicken for my dad to celebrate his birthday. It was great. Along with that went my mom's famous strawberry cake. Mom was not feeling so great, so i helped her out with that. It was very hard. This is mom's cake(i have made it before, but it just doesn't taste the same) I cried during the process but it turned out ok.
Anyway cravings.... does anyone else of this uncontrolable desire to eat a variety of differnet things. I think most people just eat and don't really care what it is or have a relationship with their food. I do. I love food. I love how it is made, and how it is comforting, or light, or summer food, or warm winter food. I don't really understand those people that just eat to live. Also it isn't good that i have the live to eat attitude. But i do enjoy a yummy meal. it makes me think of childhood, and family, and happiness.
so all that being said, I am craving some kind of Spaghetti concoction tonight. My sister referred to it as Spaghetti surprise.:) I told her it was barbaghetti (because one time my mom used barbque sauce to make the sauce go farther. YUCK) HAVE A WONDERFUL MEAL TONIGHT WITH YOUR FAMILY.
Spaghetti Surprise
medium shell noodles
large jar of prego
ittalian cheese
a little bit of cottage cheese
and crusty bread.
Turned out great. :)
This weekend it was fried chicken! I also am forever trying to make everything I normally make better. But fried chicken is one that I think i do pretty well. Any way what better than to make fried chicken for my dad to celebrate his birthday. It was great. Along with that went my mom's famous strawberry cake. Mom was not feeling so great, so i helped her out with that. It was very hard. This is mom's cake(i have made it before, but it just doesn't taste the same) I cried during the process but it turned out ok.
Anyway cravings.... does anyone else of this uncontrolable desire to eat a variety of differnet things. I think most people just eat and don't really care what it is or have a relationship with their food. I do. I love food. I love how it is made, and how it is comforting, or light, or summer food, or warm winter food. I don't really understand those people that just eat to live. Also it isn't good that i have the live to eat attitude. But i do enjoy a yummy meal. it makes me think of childhood, and family, and happiness.
so all that being said, I am craving some kind of Spaghetti concoction tonight. My sister referred to it as Spaghetti surprise.:) I told her it was barbaghetti (because one time my mom used barbque sauce to make the sauce go farther. YUCK) HAVE A WONDERFUL MEAL TONIGHT WITH YOUR FAMILY.
Spaghetti Surprise
medium shell noodles
large jar of prego
ittalian cheese
a little bit of cottage cheese
and crusty bread.
Turned out great. :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Cancer stinks
So my mom is still battling her cancer. She was told yesterday that she has some now in her skull and her left leg bone, and that there is something unconclusive in her liver. It hurts all the time. She hides it well. She goes on Friday for a very long extensive MRI to determine everything.
Let me tell you something about my mom. She is beautiful. She cares for us so much. Her worry is not for herself or death, she knows that she will be with Jesus when she dies, but she worries for us. For my dad that he will be able to take care of things that need to be done. For my sister that she will not always work so hard and worry about so much. For me and my happiness and wardrobe. :) For our kids and their birthdays and our just over all happiness. She loves her family so much. She is the most giving mother and truely blesses me every day.
We went to the mall yesterday and got her a new purse. She needs a lighter purse to carry and wanted to pick out a really cute one. We walked around trying on purses and shared in a pretzel dog, in my opinion the best thing they have in the mall. The time we spent together just the two of us was priceless. My mother is truely my best friend, she makes me laugh and loves me unconditionally. OF coarse she mothers like any good mother would and always shares her opinion in her most loving way. But i have to tell you i am going to be lost without her.
Why does Cancer have to be so horrible? Why does it hurt so much? We get the news and all we can do is sit back and wait. Wait for the pain to be worse, wait for the sickness to take over. It is very hard. I am so thankful that my mom is secure in Jesus love for her. That she truly knows the One in Whom she trusts. I only pray that i can be the best daughter I can for her in the time we have left.
Let me tell you something about my mom. She is beautiful. She cares for us so much. Her worry is not for herself or death, she knows that she will be with Jesus when she dies, but she worries for us. For my dad that he will be able to take care of things that need to be done. For my sister that she will not always work so hard and worry about so much. For me and my happiness and wardrobe. :) For our kids and their birthdays and our just over all happiness. She loves her family so much. She is the most giving mother and truely blesses me every day.
We went to the mall yesterday and got her a new purse. She needs a lighter purse to carry and wanted to pick out a really cute one. We walked around trying on purses and shared in a pretzel dog, in my opinion the best thing they have in the mall. The time we spent together just the two of us was priceless. My mother is truely my best friend, she makes me laugh and loves me unconditionally. OF coarse she mothers like any good mother would and always shares her opinion in her most loving way. But i have to tell you i am going to be lost without her.
Why does Cancer have to be so horrible? Why does it hurt so much? We get the news and all we can do is sit back and wait. Wait for the pain to be worse, wait for the sickness to take over. It is very hard. I am so thankful that my mom is secure in Jesus love for her. That she truly knows the One in Whom she trusts. I only pray that i can be the best daughter I can for her in the time we have left.
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